At 5:40 a.m., the blue light from the phone screen pierced my eyes.


I stared at the red "Liquidation Price: 65,205.3," fixated on the blinding "-119.32%," repeatedly scrolling to refresh, hoping it was just a data error.
But the clean "0.00" in the account wouldn't lie—48,762.56 USDT, all gone.

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From opening the position to liquidation, less than thirty hours.
I remember clearly, at 00:37 on June 14th, I looked at the candlestick chart, firmly believing Bitcoin would break through 65,000. 50x leverage, full position—at that moment, I felt I wasn't a gambler, but someone who "understood the market."

Every 1% price fluctuation meant a 50% change in my account.
I initially made money, and the unrealized gains made me feel I had "gotten the hang of it."
Human nature is so ridiculous: a few lucky successes, and you mistake luck for talent.

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Then the situation changed.
A silent decline without any warning.
Opening at 63,900, I watched helplessly as the price slid toward the liquidation line at 65,200.

The stupidest thing I did wasn't opening the position, but repeatedly adding margin during the process, always thinking I could endure.
This is a classic "disposition effect"—holding on stubbornly during losses, but rushing to sell when profitable.
Knowing the trend was wrong, I just couldn't bring myself to click the "stop loss" button.
Because once I confirmed the loss, it was like admitting I was wrong.
And admitting mistakes is even more painful than losing money.

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The market never tells stories.
It doesn't care how hard you've worked, how long you've studied, or how much expectation you carry. It only cares about the price.
The moment the price breaks through the liquidation line, the system won't show mercy just because you "have to pay rent next week," nor will it stop because you "already lost a lot and it should rebound."
The essence of full leverage + high leverage is to entrust your fate entirely to the market's random walk.

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Looking back now, it wasn't the market that truly killed me, but those things I dared not face inside my heart:

· Resentment when seeing others share their wins
· The inflated sense of invincibility when floating profits
· The urgency to recover losses after a setback
· And the arrogance of never admitting "I was wrong"

Greed, fear, luck, arrogance—these things are usually hidden behind the mask of reason, but once leverage is involved, they all explode.

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The most ironic thing is, after liquidation, I actually felt relieved.
No more waking up in the middle of the night to check the market, no more rapid heartbeat from a needle prick.
After losing everything, the first feeling wasn't pain, but a kind of numb calmness.

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I don't know how to tell my family. This money was meant for something else.
Now, saying anything just sounds like an excuse.

If anyone reads this, I just want to tell you an old but valuable lesson bought with hundreds of thousands:
Never play a game you can't afford to lose with money you can't afford to lose.
The market is always the market; what keeps changing is people's inflated hearts.

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May everyone who has been liquidated endure this night.
Tomorrow the sun will rise again, but that number will no longer be in the account.
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